Part two: … than we can ask or imagine.

With my youngest son safely at senior school, I was looking to get back into part time work that would fit in with family life.

I heard that a nearby church school might be looking for midday supervisors and, as it turned out, an old acquaintance was the chair of governors. I emailed her to ask and she replied yes, ring the secretary to arrange a chat with the head teacher.

So I rang, to find that the head teacher was very busy as it was the week before the Easter holidays and she may not be able to see me for quite a while. Feeling bold, I said, “Is she busy now? I’m free.” As it turned out, she wasn’t, so I went and had a quick tour of the school, then went to her office for a chat.

It didn’t really go quite how I expected. I was being asked a lot of questions about previous experience, qualifications, interests etc – rather more than would be expected for someone supervising lunches – and she was making lots of notes! After half an hour I had been interviewed and offered a position that didn’t yet exist, as a one-to-one teaching assistant to a young boy with special needs who had just received a Statement! Wow! I was not expecting that, but obviously God was speaking to this Christian lady – and she was listening!

We didn’t know when this job would start exactly, but we agreed to continue to pray about it and speak again in due course. After several weeks, I was officially offered the position and started at the beginning of the next school year.

I’m not going to say it was easy! In at the deep end was an understatement, but I learned, out of necessity, to rely on the Lord every day for inspiration and guidance and we had some amazing moments as my young pupil and I found new ways of learning. I felt as though I’d waited my whole life for this opportunity and it was the most fulfilling experience I’ve ever had in a job of work!

Every little achievement made me as proud as if he’d been my own son. When he moved on to his next school I was happy and sad all at the same time, but I knew the season was coming to an end and I had been there just for him, because God has a plan for his life too and I was honoured to be a small part of it.

I think what I’ve been trying to say, is that God really can do immeasurably more than all we can ask OR imagine! When we submit to his will, the yoke is easy and the burden is light. We find unimaginable joy in what seemed impossible, unattainable, way beyond us. But he KNOWS us, better than we know ourselves! I am so very grateful for what he’s given me in my life; the people, the experiences (both easy and difficult) because he’s shown me that, no matter what, he is faithful and I am loved – immeasurably!

Part one: He can do immeasurably more…

When I went on maternity leave with my first child, I strongly felt that the Lord wanted me to be a stay at home mother until my youngest child was twelve – who knew when that would be?! I hadn’t even given birth to the first one! That would mean a drastic drop in our household income for a long time to come, but it’s what we decided to do, and trust him to meet our needs – which he did in various and unexpected ways. We’ve sailed pretty close to the wind at times, but have never actually sunk!

Oh, and I neglected to tell you that I was an “older” mother! We had been married for several years before we decided to start a family and then it seemed like it might not happen at all. After a year of trying, I gave it over to the Lord and said, “If it’s not your will for us to have children, that’s ok. We’ll just accept that you have something else planned for us.”

That same morning, I opened my bible and my eyes fell on Psalm 113 …. He settles the barren woman into her home as a happy mother of children. I chuckled to myself. “Ok, Lord..!”

That was Tuesday. On Saturday I had a positive pregnancy test! When I surrendered to the Lord’s will, I was already pregnant but didn’t know it! He knew, of course, and of all the verses I could have randomly arrived at, he showed me that one! We’d moved house 15 months earlier and truly had just settled in.

So, the night before I was due to go for my first scan, I said to my husband, “We’re having a boy.” “What do you mean? How do you know?” he asked. “I don’t know how I know,” I replied, “but we’re having a boy! God said boy this time, girl next time.”

Though I had many problems during that pregnancy, ending up with pre-eclampsia and an emergency c-section, I knew all would be well, because he’d told me in advance. How could I be a happy mother if something happened to my unborn son?

Fast forward a couple of years… having had a molar pregnancy (not very common) which ended in miscarriage, followed by another miscarriage, finally I had a viable pregnancy. Well, he did say “children”!

I was wondering to myself whether this one was going to be a girl, since the original word was boy this time, girl next time. Then, a few weeks later, during an afternoon nap, I saw a baby lying on the bed and heard my voice exclaim, “Oh! It’s a boy!” And it was!

Some years later, I had a dream that a young girl with long straight hair, similar to mine when I was a teenager, came over and touched me on the arm. I thought she looked familiar but I didn’t know who she was. When I woke up I felt the Lord said, “That was your daughter.” Her name is Kathryn Louisa Grace – the name we chose for a girl – and I believe I will meet her in heaven one day.

I am a happy mother of children, three actually, just as he said. Praise his name!

No limits…

You, Lord, are the God of no limits.

There was no limit to your love for us when you hung on the cross.

There was no limit to the suffering you were willing to bear as you took upon yourself all the sin of mankind, once, for all.

There is no limit to your forgiveness when we call on your name and surrender our lives, so filled with pride and self righteousness, for a life hidden in you.

There is no limit to who you are. You exist eternally, with no beginning and no end, the alpha and the omega. In you, it is always today, for you are the great I AM. To be in your presence is now, this moment, not yesterday or tomorrow.

There is no limit to our hope in you, in your name, in your blood. You have defeated every unholy thing.

There is no limit to the power of the Holy Spirit, who was there at the beginning, as the universe was created, and who resurrected you, Jesus, as the firstborn from among the dead; who lives in us as the deposit guaranteeing our inheritance.

There will be no limit to the joy we will experience when we finally meet you face to face… then our worship will have no limit as we dwell in your presence for ever.

Love you Lord! ❤

Nothing but the blood…

Some Christians may think that old hymns are boring, difficult or not relevant to modern day living. I’m in two minds about it. There are some well known hymns that I love, that take me to the heights of worship… How great thou art, Great is thy faithfulness and one of my all time favourites, To God be the glory! On the other hand I have been present (and silently worshiping!) whilst a congregation struggles through a real dirge of a hymn, with a difficult song and uninspiring words.

Surely the aim of any musical worship, regardless of style, should be to lift up the Lord and relay an accurate biblical message?

Nothing but the Blood by Robert Lowry does just that.

What can wash away my sin?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus;
What can make me whole again?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

Oh! precious is the flow
That makes me white as snow;
No other fount I know,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

For my pardon, this I see,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus;
For my cleansing this my plea,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

Nothing can for sin atone,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus;
Naught of good that I have done,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

This is all my hope and peace,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus;
This is all my righteousness,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

Now by this I’ll overcome—
Nothing but the blood of Jesus;
Now by this I’ll reach my home—
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

Glory! Glory! This I sing—
Nothing but the blood of Jesus,
All my praise for this I bring—
Nothing but the blood of Jesus

NOTHING but the blood of Jesus. Not baptism, not works, not regular Sunday church attendance, not obeying rules or being a “good person”.

It is only by the blood of the Lamb that we are saved.

John 1:29
The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him and said, “Look, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world!

Acts 4:12
Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.”

Ephesians 1:13-14
And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, [14] who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory.

The Prodigal Son…

The more I ponder on the parable of the prodigal son, the more I am in absolute wonder at the beauty of this story and how the bible speaks to us about God’s love.

This parable can be looked at from three different viewpoints. The son who took his inheritance, the son who stayed at home and the father.

The son who took his inheritance was impulsive, with no sense of duty towards his family. He knew what his inheritance would be but he was impatient and couldn’t wait for it, so with the audacity of one so young and impulsive, he asked his father for it. It may not have consciously crossed his mind, but what he was really saying was, “I can’t wait for you to die!” So his father gave him what he asked for.

Meanwhile the other son, who you might say was the responsible and dutiful one, stayed and continued to work on the estate.

When the younger son had spent his entire inheritance on wild living and had nothing left, he began to reflect on his past… thinking of what he’d left behind. He had sunk so low that he was looking after pigs belonging to a gentile, for surely no respectable Jew would keep such unclean animals. He wished he could share their food just to survive, he was so hungry. He’d hit rock bottom. How on earth has it come to this, he reflected. I had everything and now I have nothing. My father is a good man, he treats his servants well and they have plenty to eat… I will return home and say to him, Father I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired hands. So he left the pigs and set out on the journey home.

Every day since the son had left, the father had come out to look for him. He missed him so much and longed to see him again. On this particular day, as he looked out, he saw his son walking towards him and his heart was filled with joy! He ran out to meet him – and the son, not expecting a welcome, began his rehearsed speech. Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son… But before he could say, Make me like one of your hired servants, the father had flung his arms around him and embraced him. He called to his servants to bring a robe and sandals, and put a ring on his son’s finger, then he called for the fattened calf to be killed. His son was gone for so long – he didn’t know if he was dead or alive – but now he was home. It was the most wonderful day and worthy of a huge celebration.

The older brother, wondering what the commotion was, asked a servant. When he heard that his brother had returned he was not pleased. This selfish, reckless boy had been given his inheritance while his father still lived and had not even thought about his brother being left behind to do the work of two. Though the father tried to encourage him to come into the banquet, the older son refused as he felt so angry and resentful. He now directed that resentment not just at his brother, but at his father too. He felt his little brother had been given everything. The irony was that one day, he would inherit everything the father had. His brother would have nothing other than his father’s love. But sadly, the older brother couldn’t see that he too was loved. He was working to build his own inheritance, but didn’t build his relationship with his father.

And therein lies the moral of the story…

We all expect to inherit something, someday. But will it be what we think is rightfully ours because we’ve worked for it? Or will we have the joy of experiencing the love of the father, that we haven’t worked for, and don’t deserve but is freely given?

The choice is yours….

Did Jesus purchase our healing…?

This is Young’s Literal Translation…

Isaiah 53:4-5,10
Surely our sicknesses he hath borne, And our pains — he hath carried them, And we — we have esteemed (considered) him plagued, Smitten of God, and afflicted. [5] And he is pierced for our transgressions, Bruised for our iniquities, The chastisement of our peace [is] on him, And by his bruise there is healing to us. [10] And Jehovah hath delighted to bruise him, He hath made HIM sick, If his soul doth make an offering for guilt, He seeth (sees) seed — he prolongeth days, And the pleasure of Jehovah in his hand doth prosper.

Read this. Then read it again. Then REALLY read it and drink in every word! SURELY he bore our sicknesses and carried our pains! By his bruise there is healing to us!

No ifs buts or maybes. FACT! Believe that Jesus paid for EVERYTHING at the cross – including our healing!

Hidden in Christ…

Ok, so this is a rather poor depiction of a prophetic picture I had a while back but, as persecution and spiritual attacks against Christians generally are on the rise, I thought I should share what I believe the Lord was saying…

The “people” you can see are all born again Christians, saved by grace through faith and indwelt by the Holy Spirit. The bright white light is where Jesus is, at the centre. As we draw nearer to him we are completely hidden from the enemy. He knows the blinding white light is where Jesus is, but he can’t see him. He knows there are believers with him in the light but he can’t see those who are close to him. The people on the periphery are saved and sealed, but they are distracted by the things of the world, not staying close and not keeping their eyes on Jesus. The further they move away from the Lord, the more visible they become.

The enemy constantly fires arrows at us; lies, fear, discouragement, sickness, affliction… Those darts cannot harm those who are in Christ, BUT the people at the outer edges can be seen and aimed at more accurately and when their eyes are not on the Lord, they can see those darts coming and RECEIVE them!

Let me explain what I mean. Imagine it’s raining and you’re driving carefully through a flood on the road, but someone coming the other way speeds into the water making a big wave that goes right over your car. I’ll bet that even with your doors and windows securely shut and your windscreen wipers going, you still duck! It’s a natural reaction because you see the big wave coming your way and try to dodge it so you don’t get wet – even though you’re protected!

Back to the picture… if you see the arrow speeding towards you, it’s very hard not to receive it!

There is a “positive thinking” saying: What the mind can conceive and believe it can achieve. In a positive context, this is how many world class entrepreneurs, scientists and athletes – to name but a few – got to where they are; because they visualised their goal in their minds and then consistently behaved in a manner that would support and realise those goals. This shows us how powerful our thoughts really are!

The mind is also capable of pessimism, doubt and negative thinking, and where this becomes our normal daily mode, can make us ill and depressed, stealing our lives from right under our noses…

If we believe that God’s plans are to prosper and not to harm us and that Jesus came that we should have life in abundance we need to know that this is achieved by keeping our thoughts fixed on the one in whom that life is found.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

John 10:10
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.

Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

That battle rages all around us, but the biggest one is the battle for our minds, for what we believe dictates how we behave. Stay close to Jesus, keep your eyes on him and, if you feel a sting where you have been hit by a stray arrow, DO NOT RECEIVE IT!